Quo Vadimus…..I’m Speaking Latin Y’all

Few people speak, or even know much Latin these days – what, with it being a dead language and all. You might as well throw some Sanskrit out there while you’re at it. But then again I think if people really thought about it there are probably only one or two phrases they’re familiar with. Most people know “carpe diem,” which translates to “seize the day.” I’ve heard the phrase about a million times, but I have never really been one of those “carpe diem” types. But, one of my other favorites, and to be honest the only other phrase I know is “quo vadimus” which translates to, “where are we going?”

I heard this phrase some years back while watching a television show I really liked. The show was called Sports Night. It was an awesome show, with an equally awesome cast. Just to name a few there was Felicity Huffman (Desperate Housewives), Robert Guillaume (Benson, kick-ass 80’s show), Josh Charles (Threesome in the 90’s, and more recently The Good Wife on CBS) and Peter Krause (Six Feet Under, and more recently Parenthood on NBC). See, awesome!!! Unfortunately, it seemed I was one of about 5 people that actually watched the show, as it only lasted two short seasons.

A quick synopsis of the show is that it was a drama about a sports news show. Kind of like the West Wing version of Sports Center. It was even created by Aaron Sorkin, who created the West Wing and most recently Newsroom on HBO. It spent very little time on the sports aspect around the show, yet focused more on the inner workings of the sports program behind the scenes, as well as taking more of an in-depth look into the characters’ personal lives.
When the network (ABC, the real one, not the network from the show) decided not to renew Sports Night they had to come up with a pretty convincing ending pretty quick, and surprisingly they did a pretty good job. They ended it by saying that the parent company that owned the channel that Sports Night was filmed on was being bought out and they may be canceled. Everyone is obviously distraught and worried about what they are going to do next, and more importantly, where they are going. Thus the title of the two-part episode entitled…..yup, you guessed it, Quo Vadimus.

Felicity Huffman’s character (Dana), the head producer of Sports Night, spends a lot of her time at a bar near the TV station, where she encounters this strange man who keeps saying to her that everything will be ok and not to worry. Even as rumors start to swirl about a potential buyer, the lack of information and constant rumors puts everyone in a state of limbo. Will they keep the show on? Will they be canceled? What is going to happen? Every time Dana runs into this stranger at the bar he tries to reassure her that everything will be ok with constant stories of how he started his own business from the ground up, and how there were times where he wasn’t sure he, or the company, was going to make it. Being the hard-nosed, no nonsense kind of character, Dana has just about had it with this guy’s story and just wants to be left alone to wallow in her own self-pity. She finally asks him what his point is, and he says “When times got really tough I would say to my employees, where are we going? So ask yourself, where are you going? And everything should be ok.” This is the final straw for Dana, she tells the guys he’s crazy and leaves.

Later comes word that the show is being purchased by a company called Quo Vadimus. Dana and the crew still have no idea what’s happening. At the end of the show Dana gives a passionate speech about how she has loved working with all the team, and that this may be their last show, and in her frustration says that have been bought by a company called Quo Vadimus, and that she doesn’t even know what it means. She quickly finds out from one of the more educated members of the staff, puts two and two together, and figures out who Mr. Mysterious is in the bar, the owner of Quo Vadimus, and owner of Sports Night.

So, on that note, I know I said a quick synopsis, but for those of you who “know” me, you know I never really do anything quick when it comes to talking movies/TV shows. Just ask my wife.
So lately, I have been thinking about the phrase Quo Vadimus, a lot. And now that I am writing this, I can see where Carpe Diem fits in too. Where carpe diem is all about living in the present, quo vadimus encourages you to consider the future. Both are equally important if actually want to get somewhere. The reason I say this is for as often as you may attempt to live each day to the fullest, you may still end up going nowhere in the end.

It is important to stop and consider what you’re doing, and whether it is taking you where you actually want to be. But many people don’t actually know where they want to go. Hell, I have been feeling that way a lot lately. Personally, I feel like each day ends up being a step in a direction, but instead of a thought-out direction, it’s a random one. Take enough random steps, and odds are that you’ll end up back where you started. This is been my discovery as of late. I feel like I am not making much progress in the direction I want my life to go. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy with my life as a whole. I love my wife, I love my family and friends, and generally I think I have a pretty good life.

It’s just that, career-wise, I feel like I’m going nowhere. I have the same complaints as other jobs…..well, maybe not completely the same. The job I’m at currently is fine enough; nowhere near as hellish as previous jobs, but still falls in the spectrum of doing what I’ve always done. The further along in my current career I get I feel I get further and further stuck in this weird quagmire of being really good at what I do, compensated very well (for which I am very grateful), but am in no way inspired or even motivated. Most days I sit and just pray for the end of the day to come. But lately as I vent to my wife I start to get this feeling like, “I’ve been here before,” like I’m going in circles.

I think this may be the case with a lot of people. When you realize that you’re going in circles, and things get bad, that’s the time to stop and ask yourself, “Where am I going?” Sometimes it’s difficult to ask yourself the hard questions, because your answer may be that you’re going somewhere you don’t want to go. But in the end, that’s ok, because now you know. After all, to get to where you want to go in life, not only do you need to know your destination, but you need to know where you are in life.
This has been my new thought process lately. I have spent so much time worrying about why things aren’t going my way, and why it seems like nothing I want to happen comes my way. Maybe it’s because I have not spent enough time looking at where I really want to go. I just complain that I don’t want to be where I’m at currently, but I have no idea where I want to go.

This is kind of how I’ve spent most of my life; kind of drifting from one point to another. The only time I have ever really had any “structure” or “direction” was when I was in the military. Shit, I didn’t have much of a choice, now did I, lol. Up until I met my wife, I kind of just lived life one day at a time. This isn’t a bad thing. I mean, I could have been doing a lot worse, and it’s also not like I was some vagabond drifting from one place to another. I was going to school and working, doing all the good ole adult shit. But I had no direction.

I thought I had direction, but to be honest, if you asked me, “What are you going to do after you graduate,” I would probably stared at you and said, “I don’t know.” I was working a job I didn’t even like; I had no prospects of a career on the horizon, and a floundering personal and spiritual life. And I don’t mean my “personal life” pertaining to my friends and stuff like that. I’m more referring to hobbies or things I wanted to do within the community.

Over the past couple of years I’ve taken drastic steps to find my path. To help battle some of my depression issues, and just generally to work on issues, the Wife helped me rediscover my love of writing; thus the blog. After first it was just to work through stuff, then when my son was born my writing took on a whole new directions as I chronicled all my son’s movements in his almost 3 years. But, just in the past 3 months I’ve discovered more direction than ever before, and I am more comfortable than ever proudly proclaiming, “I’m a writer.” Sure, I may not get paid to write, and my blog may only have a handful of follower, and barely sniff a few hundred views a month, but you know what, I’m still a writer and I’m grateful for those views. I’m also grateful for all the connections I made after attending BlogU.

While I was the only guy in conference of about 200 women I felt at home. I met so many talented writers, including some of my Blogebrities (Blog Celebrities) like Jen from People I Want To Punch In The Throat and Susan from Divine Secrets of a Domestic Diva. Every one of them welcomed me and has continued being supportive since; including some honest criticism on my blog/writing and much needed kick-in-the-ass advise (shout out to Kim from Let Me Start By Saying) all coming from a place of wanting to see me improve as a writer.

Am I happy at my current job, no, but at least I can finally feel a bit more comfortable that I’ve found not only a direction, but a destination.

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11 thoughts on “Quo Vadimus…..I’m Speaking Latin Y’all

  1. Just so you know, I was one of the other five people that watched Sports Night, and when I can find it in reruns, I still watch it. Keep up the writing. You really are good at getting your ideas across.

  2. So many of us are in the same boat. I think the best thing we can do is support each other. My job is OK–my boss is nice, and so are my coworkers, and while it’s not particularly intellectually challenging, that’s probably a good thing because it would interfere with my making notes for (and actually writing) blog posts, and doing Twitter during working hours. So for now I’ll take what I have, and appreciate a comfortable salary, a flexible schedule, and the ability to still do what I like, even if I’m not getting paid for what I like most. Hang in there–sooner or later opportunities present themselves.

  3. I know the show you are talking about. I saw a minute here and a minute there but could never get into it.
    Glad to hear the writing is taking off and for the great conference. Saying I am a writer seems to be so difficult. I’m not sure why. All I know is many of us find it hard to do.

  4. Glad you’ve found some direction – I think sometimes it’s important to be aimless, it gets exhausting having direction and purpose 😛 My current job is not my passion but I learn new things and it’s fun, besides it pays well enough and the flexibility is phenOM. How is that book coming? Happy Hump Day Mike! -Iva

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